I haven't been blogging in for ages and I have had multiple people emailing me what's up and I promised a long overdue update, so here we go:
Lots of things have changed and many things are still the same. When I was done with all the therapy and outside help everything was clear to me what needed to change in order to get less stress. But in real life fixing things that have been going on for years is not so easily and quick as I hoped for. But knowing what is causing it is 100 times better then not knowing because now I can make plans to take small steps in getting things the way I want to have them. After DH's busy season started again and mine as well I finally made the decision to get a housekeeper and seriously I wish I have done that much sooner. It gives me so much rest as now I have more time to focus on the things I want to focus on, so one stress thing is down! I also am taking a bit more time to relax and just sit and read or watch a movie. One of the main reasons for doing this was that I went to a acupuncturist who told me I have no energy to work with, which is bad. I was going through on willpower instead on my own energy. Since then I took a lot more time to relax more and I have to say I am feeling a bit more less tired, especially in the evenings.
Next week I am seeing a designer who hopefully is going to make my new logo and website and such as this is something that is on my to do list for two years now and I simply never ever have time to do it myself so I have to let things done by someone else, something I find difficult as I am a perfectionist and want to be in control, but I have faith that she can pull it off the way I want it to be. Hopefully by the end of this year I have everything in order to make a fresh new start in 2014, because i have so many great plans :).
The kids are doing ok. Anthony hit puberty and wants to sleep in till 2.00!!! and has more mood swings which causes us to clash from time to time. Jadenn has had a grow spurt and is spending the summer holiday playing with his friend Mike. We went to Italy in June which was much needed and I seriously did nothing but relaxing, reading, eating and sleeping.
The thing that still isn't going well is my weight. I try not to think about it too much but I really do not like the way I look right now, I feel like someone swallowed the real me, because this is not me. I have decided to buy running shoes tomorrow and start running, I just need to move more and sitting on my computer chair all day isn't helping much. I asked DH to run with me, so we shall see how it goes.
So this is where I am at right now. Working to get things better on a slow pace, excepting that it is on a slow pace and trusting in a new future for me and my family where there is more peace, joy and relaxations.....wish me luck on achieving this!