The weather here is so hot. and I don't do hot. I get a sun rash really easily, so for me it is all about staying inside and you will never ever see me trying to get a tan by lying on a beach or in my backyard. BUT wait a minute....I do have a tan :)
I walk the dog an hour every morning, this morning sweating like a pig when I came home, and without really doing anything for it I got a little bit of a tan.
Speaking of me walking. I told you last week I was trying to improve my eating habits right? well I didn't eat candy ,chips or whatever that is bad for you all week, I walked the dog and I lost......NOTHING! NOTHING, I even think I gained a bit. Soooooooooooooo frustrating when you live with Raymond AKA david Beckham ;) who started to go to the gym again. he lost 2 kilo's in 2 days by going to the gym and not eating cookies, frustrating I tell you and the worse thing is he doesn;t have to lose weight at all, he looks smoking hot already!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
So my next plan is to start swimming in my vacation in Italy. Early in the morning, like 7-ish. Doing tracks for one hour. And continue doing this when we get back home once a week with Anthony.
I became to realize that my weight is just a fat-suit that I put on me to feel safe, to hide from the things I didn't wanted to take a look at, I didn't wanted to feel. But instead it is not helping me to feel safe it is in fact suffocating me and making me feel miserable. I believe everyone who is seriously overweight has issues they do not want to look at. When I look in the mirror I think "WHO is that? That is not me!"
Well it is and I have to accept myself now the way I am and from there I can go forward. I know that inside of me is the real me who is scared shit of getting hurt, to trust someone and to not be good enough. So I am working on it and I know I will find her someday and give her a good old hug and tell her she is strong, positive, caring, sexy, worth to be loved, that she can do and achieve anything she wants to and so much more. I tell her I believe in her.
Ok I think I am going to scrap about this NOW :)
PS: my bloodtest was good and so were Jadenn's ears, thanks for asking and caring.
PS 2: I started twittering check me out and ad me if you want under corinnedelis.